Yeah? What does it say about only being close to a few people but having those few people constantly used against you? Does that fit with the "loner" role too?
[ Kinda wrong answer, but there really wasn't a right one. ]
So I gotta have a tragic backstory, huh? That's why I don't like people?
My mother gave birth to me and that's about where her mothering stopped, she was always in and out doing who the hell knows what while my Aunt covered for her. My father wasn't in the picture but it turns out he was a fucking psychopath who killed girls anyway. I grew up poor, but once I figured out what the hell I was actually good at, I used that to get my own place. Japan can outlaw fighting rings all it wants, but just like the Yakuza, it's not going anywhere.
If you're trying to tell me I'm a fucked up person, I already know. But I don't stay away from people cause I'm scared or tired of being hurt or whatever. And I'm not trying to hide my "vulnerabilities", everyone knows who I'm close to back home and they probably know here too.
I don't have time for a lot of people and there's others who are way better suited to holding everyone's hand like Xie Lian. But I'm not hiding fucking anything, no matter what you fucking think.
[ This isn't one of her pitiful, fearful apologies. This is one of sympathy. ]
I simply read you as one that does not prefer company of others. I would never insist that you need to be tragic, or "fucked up." Usually when people isolate themselves, that is as a means of protection. If you wanted to make time for people, you could have.
But I will apologize again for reading you incorrectly. I did not mean to imply anything by it.
[ i can't believe akira got sche to say the f word ]
Thank you for sharing your story with me. You may not mind it, but I still appreciate it. I don't think there's anything wrong with you, but I suppose that's just another unsolicited opinion, isn't it?
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I did not say that because I was expecting you to divulge anything about yourself. I am sorry if I upset you.
[ but it does kinda prove her point... ]
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No, explain.
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If you keep your true feelings hidden, you cannot be vulnerable.
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[ She's not entirely wrong, granted. ]
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[ sure, she doesn't want to aggravate him further, so she would have said yes regardless, but. ]
I am not going to pretend to know you, or the intricacies of your life. I am merely a storyteller that is familiar with archetypes.
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So I gotta have a tragic backstory, huh? That's why I don't like people?
My mother gave birth to me and that's about where her mothering stopped, she was always in and out doing who the hell knows what while my Aunt covered for her. My father wasn't in the picture but it turns out he was a fucking psychopath who killed girls anyway. I grew up poor, but once I figured out what the hell I was actually good at, I used that to get my own place. Japan can outlaw fighting rings all it wants, but just like the Yakuza, it's not going anywhere.
If you're trying to tell me I'm a fucked up person, I already know. But I don't stay away from people cause I'm scared or tired of being hurt or whatever. And I'm not trying to hide my "vulnerabilities", everyone knows who I'm close to back home and they probably know here too.
I don't have time for a lot of people and there's others who are way better suited to holding everyone's hand like Xie Lian. But I'm not hiding fucking anything, no matter what you fucking think.
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[ This isn't one of her pitiful, fearful apologies. This is one of sympathy. ]
I simply read you as one that does not prefer company of others. I would never insist that you need to be tragic, or "fucked up." Usually when people isolate themselves, that is as a means of protection. If you wanted to make time for people, you could have.
But I will apologize again for reading you incorrectly. I did not mean to imply anything by it.
[ i can't believe akira got sche to say the f word ]
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[ He shakes his head. ]
I don't have an interest in being pitied. And I know stuff's wrong with me or whatever, but that doesn't mean I want to be fixed.
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Yeah, yeah. [ Whatever's left of his beer he throws it back and then gets up from the stool, gathering Nagako around his arm. ]
Bars make people too chatty.
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[ there's the tiniest little laugh. her cosmo has been long gone for a while now. ]
This story has reached its conclusion. I'll be taking my leave. Thank you for the drink.