SCHE;

[bloodread]

meme go here but lbr i should prob just grab one of her trial outfits

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[bloodread]

Wait, so I'm supposed to know who you are?

[ Looks her up and down, but manages not to oogle her during this because being attracted to women is ??? ]

[naqqali]

[ akira is valid. ]

Many people are familiar with my tales from the collection of stories known as The One Thousand and One Nights. Stories like Aladdin and the Magic Laml, Ali Baba and the Forty Thieves, and The Voyages of Sinbad the Sailor.

[bloodread]

Oh, I've seen Aladdin with Ami. [ Tilt of his head. ]

You said your tales, so you mean you wrote those?

[naqqali]

I told them to my husband. They were complied as a narrative sometime later. I told him stories I knew, and some I created on my own, to keep him entertained each night so he would not kill me. If I left a story on a cliffhanger, I would live to see the next day so I could continue. Then I would start another story, and this went on for one thousand and one nights.

[bloodread]

[ Boy does he not like that. Nagako hisses lowly, now splayed out on the bartop. ]

...seriously?

[naqqali]

[ she reacts as if his ire at directed towards her, even though this is not the first time she had gotten that reaction about her husband. ]

Yes, I am serious.

[bloodread]

...he's dead, right?

[naqqali]

Yes. For a very long time, now.

[bloodread]

[ That makes him settle a little, he manages to dip back into his mug rather than say "good". ]

So what do you want as a spirit?

[naqqali]

[ she preoccupies herself for a moment, slowly rotating her glass by the stem. ]

I don't want to die. I don't want to be summoned over and over to face the agony of death.

[bloodread]

So you'd rather live forever, or move on?

[naqqali]

Yes. Dying is scary, but I think I would rather move on. Anything that means I don't have to be summoned anymore.

[bloodread]

Can't you just ignore it if someone calls you?

[ He is doing his best to Understand. ]

[naqqali]

[ in all fairness, fate is bullshit. ]

I... could. Yes.

[ No one has challenged her on this before! Because to be summoned is agreeing to a contract. Both parties have to consent. ]

But I'm afraid of what will happen if I don't obey. Since I am not very powerful in terms of brute strength, it is not as if being summoned all the time is something I have to be concerned about. All it takes, though, is one wrong Master who treats me like something disposable...

I used to hate the thought of being summoned so much that I tried to destroy the Servant Summoning System. It was selfish of me, but I was so afraid of dying I felt as if that was my best choice, given the opportunity to do so. Except... I did end up making some friends, and found that people can care about me.

And yet, I am here, watching others who care about one another have to deal with the pain of loss every week. So I am not so sure what to think anymore.

[bloodread]

[ This is a lot and Akira has Thoughts, but he has a question first. ]

Do you care about anyone here?

[naqqali]

I care that there are people murdered each week, sometimes against even the killer's own wishes. I care that there are people desperate enough to do such a thing, and cut short the lives of others. There are such kind people here, and even for those who aren't, I wouldn't wish death upon them like this.

[bloodread]

People are just a fucking mess. [ Full stop. ] But situation's like this are fucked up too. But either way, not everyone's the same, not even close.

[ Sometimes a situation calls for believe in humanity speech, but this is the best you got. ]

[naqqali]

I know that. It is still hard to get too close for that reason. What if I misread someone, and their kindness was a ruse and I get killed? Or not being able to help when someone is suffering... It makes me feel helpless.

[ this whole sick game makes her helpless, tbh ]

[bloodread]

You can't help or trust everyone.

[ He is probably a bad person to talk to about this tbh. ]

[naqqali]

[ the irony of sche divulging this much to this specific person. ]

I am aware. I would like to be less selfish, but I'm afraid that even if I try, I will still be too scared to be anything else. I made great strides once I had made friends, but I'm back at square one.

[ because her bestie back home had done all the heavy lifting in their relationship and didn't care that sche was a sad sack. lol. ]

[bloodread]

[ I can't believe Akira is stabbing Sche today and I forgot. ]

So what, are you just gonna sit around and be miserable? If you're fine with that whatever, but expecting shit to happen without doing anything is for idiots who believe in Happily Ever Afters.

[naqqali]

[ rip. ]

[ but, no, that actually gets a tiny smile to play on her lips. ]

You remind me of someone that I met before.

[bloodread]

Huh? Who?

[ Like you would know who they are Akira. ]

[naqqali]

A man who tried very hard to get me to smile. [ hm. mysterious! ]

I don't think either of you are wrong to say the things that you did. Still, I wonder if it'll ever be easy to let go of my thoughts and have a contented life. What about you? Are you content?

[bloodread]

Yeah, that's not me.

[ Look at his ever present scowl. ]

...what part of this entire clusterfuck would make me content?